Brave Enough

The New Day Blooms …

An outstanding presentation by Amanda Gorman, the 22-year-old Youth Poet Laureate, was widely heralded as an inspiration gracing President Joe Biden’s Inauguration ceremony. The culminating verse proclaimed a powerful declaration, as follows:

“When day comes, we step out of the shade, Aflame and unafraid,
The new day blooms as we free it. For there is always light,
If only we are brave enough to see it. If only we are brave enough to Be it.”

Aflame & Unafraid

There have been times in my 69 years when I questioned whether I was brave enough. 

As some of you know — almost 4-1/2 years ago now, I contracted a rare, chronic autoimmune disease that belabored me for several delirious weeks, followed by another prolonged period of time when I was, in no way, cognizant of the everyday life I had been blessed to live before. 

One day (out of the blue), I became newly aware of the Spirit-guided nature of my true Being. It felt as if my obedient, yet stressed body and soul were being nurtured by serene slumbers — While being intrinsically held, actuated, and sustained from above and beyond the dimensions and dynamics of time, space, and any human sense of separation, one from another.

Surrounded by that sublime stillness and deep peace, I could steward an innate knowing that supplants intellectual knowledge, and ease that makes light of “dis-ease” (the absence of ease). 

The essence of Spirit thereof was an apt depiction of Amanda Gorman’s poetic statement: “There is always Light — If we are brave enough to see It, If we are brave enough to Be It”.

Nowadays, here “at home” — Working with the weekly blog these last five months — I have come to know that we have only just begun to “light up” All that can be manifested and expressed!

Parenthetically, I realize that, heretofore, I have been reluctant to present a range of esoteric elements which may well be truly “ineffable” (ie, indescribable beyond words) — All the while, I desired not to come off as sounding theoretical, impractical, or abstractly belief-ridden.

Albeit in the end, the true remedy for all such challenges is two-fold: Outward and Upward:

OUTWARD: To Practice an Abiding Simplicity in All Facets of Daily Living and Serving — And …

UPWARD: To Constantly Let Go into the Ever-Present Spirit, where there is a resistance-free Openness that witnesses One’s highest Self continually affirming the Word expressed:

“I AM Spirit — YOUR Spirit —
One with the Eternal Field of Light.
I AM with You and In You, Brave One —
Above & Beyond any material illusions —

We Are One —
As We Have Always Been — As We Now Are —  & As We Will Forever Be
— I in You, and You in Me —
In the Eternal Present Moment of Light Shining
And the Dawn of the New Day Blooming

My Melanie

I love our love stories

Over four years ago, yet months after the inception of a chronic autoimmune disorder that affected my brain and central nervous system, and then subsequent residence in rehab, Melanie moved me back to our home of many years. By then I had convalesced to a point at which I remembered who I was, but maybe not always instantly recalling where or when I was!

My Melanie and Me

One day, a memory lapse came over me. It was of a sufficient degree that I wandered out into the back yard and inquired of a beautiful lady gardening there as to what that separate little house out back was doing back there. (It was in actuality our long-standing garden shed.) 

In reply, the lady was forward enough to hold both of my hands, then give me a hug. Startled, I took a step back from her, stared, and then I asked, “And so, who are you?”

She gazed into my eyes with a continual grin. Then, after a few seconds her grin turned quizzicle, and she answered, “My name is Melanie.”

 It was then that a light of recognition dawned on me. “MY Melanie?” I asked, with some confusion. “Yes, my Dear Love. You are my Heart.” Her eyes filled with caressing concern.  

Then after, we have made sure we give each other daily mail, notes, greeting cards, or sweet bite chocolates. This last month yielded me a beautiful birthday card, with a note that said this:

To My Husband on Your Birthday

I love our Love Story —
The ups, the downs, the twists and turns –,
The moments that keep us together on this journey …

I love looking back to the day we met,
Remembering all those moments that
Now dwell forever in my heart.

I love knowing that time has made us stronger,
And brought us even closer together …

And when I think about tomorrow, wondering what our Love Story will hold,
I know it’ll be wonderful, because I’ll be sharing It with You.


My Darling and Dearest Love,
I am Blessed beyond Words by
Your Strength, Courage, Joy, Humor, and
Reverence for Life and God

You Are My Heart ..
Your Melanie

Mind, Mood, and Memory

Among the usual daily dozen of unrequested marketing mailings that I find stuffed in my mailbox, I recently came across a poochy, padded envelope. Upon opening it, I found a general form letter of introduction, a logo-laden “2021” wall calendar; a large sheet of tiny return address stickers with my (often misspelled) name on each, and finally a stack of mass-mailed sales material offering me and many a $1-a-month subscription, titled, “Mind, Mood, & Memory” 


Initially quizzical about its purpose, I soon discovered that — even with it reflecting rather dense marketing approaches aimed to impress — its central content was sourced from Massachusetts General Hospital — rated tops in the field of aging and general health. 

“Mind, Mood, & Memory” aims to emphasize a healthy balance in one’s state of mind. This sustains physical energy and vitality, while reducing (or at least postponing) effects of aging.

Mind — Providing the means by which one centers one’s “world” via conscious, uplifting intent;
Mood Noting temporary (often momentary) reactions that influence subconscious emotions;
Memory Honing faculties for rehearsing, processing, then storing experiences from the past.

How opportune this reminder was!: Because, just a day before, I had rediscovered a rationale that I originally developed and taught to college music students years ago. And, for decades since, I have found it to be useful in my own meditations and other personal growth processes.

As an approach to releasing memories of personal challenges in the past, it provides a matrix for using literary sources as present-day templates to help retrain mindset, mood, and memory.

Here’s a good example of a text (song lyrics, in this case) that specifically presents this model: An aria here, from the modern pop opera, “Les Miserables”, begins with warm reminiscences of “times gone by” and then suddenly turns toward forlorn feelings of grief and anger, as follows: 

“I dreamed a dream in times gone by, When hope was high and life worth living.
I dreamed that Love would never die, I dreamed that God would be forgiving.
Then I was young and unafraid; And dreams were made, and used, and wasted.
There was no ransom to be paid — No song unsung, no wine untasted.

“But the tigers come at night, with their voices soft as thunder.
As they tear your hope apart as they turn your dream to shame.
I had a dream my life would be so different from this hell I’m living,
So different now from what it seemed; Life killed the dream I dreamed.”

Now, if this were a narrative of one of my own real-life experiences (albeit poetic), I would address the first four lines only, and change that text from past to future. Doing so would be worded as something like what follows herein below:

“I’ll Dream my Dream as Time goes by, While Hope is Nigh and Life IS Living.
I Know that Love will Never Die, I Know that God Gives Vast Abundance.

“Now I am Sage and Made Aware that We are Here for One Great Purpose,
And our Greatness shows by day, And our Voice Bespeaks Sheer Wonder.  

“There is No Contest to be Won, for there is Only Life Eternal.
And the Dream Here Now is Done. Love Abides Forevermore.” 

So, I ongoingly nurture my own writing style to focus and sustain a pure, positive expression of Love, Truth, and Life. In addition, I give keen attention to ranges of literary and other artistic sources (those from all eras and genres) that provide Inspiration and Life-sustainability for All.   

Your Generous & Gracious Input is Gratefully Received Anytime. as always …

Listen to I Dreamed a Dream sung by Susan Boyle  — (Skip ads)

Emanation-Actuated Resonance

A Sanguine Setting for Being

There are currently tumultuous days in America — what with 4% of the world’s population in the USA now facing 20% of the global pandemic load — while governance is disenfranchising itself.   

In pensive times like these — when individual, hence collective, sadness and fear may well fester grief and anger — there is a sanguine “Spirit on High” heralding a cardinal Truth for all Mankind: 

“YOU are each a Divine Being with a unique, perfectly suited consciousness that you yourself requested and received at the moment of your own sacred incarnation into the realms of Earth.”

“That gift of your Divine Nature remains absolutely impervious at the core of your soul. And Now is when you can be assured of the true purpose and safe directions where your Journey goes.”

My own responsibility for living on Earth is based in my awareness and resultant attention to the invisible emanations that imbue my visible creative fields of manifestation and expression.

In this phase of my life, I am finely attuned to Currents that move me, speak to and through me, inform me, and care for me. As these Currents shape my expression in this world, I feel the emanation and the resonance which is me. It is Emanation-Actuated Resonance (E.A.R.). 

As the Currents come to me, I discern pristine sonic elements from the invisible Source of Life Energy that emanates fully in all of Creation — including our reality of tangible forms on Earth.

In a previous phase of my life, I studied music and sound in depth. A key element of the study was ear training that helped me precisely fine-tune to the accurate pitch, melody, harmonies, and timbres of a wide range of varied sounds.

I currently find that this honed skill from my earlier development of years ago now serves to assist my renewed ability to attune with different, yet kindred ranges of vibratory Current. Albeit these present currents are not “sonic” per se, they are “currents of the Heart” that fluidly blend with me in my current E.A.R. experience.

Blessings are poured into and through me in this process. The flow of Current through me generates a “sacred” (silently fertile) creative field for currents of Emanation that Actuate amidst the peaceful, still Resonance of a sanguine setting for Being.

This is my sacred wish today: Peace Be Unto Us, Each & All …

My Abundance Vow for the New Year, 2021

Happy New Year 2021

I am anticipating a Year of Abundance and subsequent Prosperity —

So much so that, with each day granted, I will be living the Reality of my Abundance Vow — 

An “Abundance Vow” is something altogether different from a “Poverty Vow”. When anyone formally pledges a ‘vow of poverty’, they choose to renounce personal worldly possessions and instead engage in a communal sharing of resources” (as described by the Borgen Project, a not-for-profit organization that addresses global poverty). 

I have never formally declared myself to have made a so-called “poverty vow” — albeit, I lived and worked for more than 30 years with a not-for-profit communal network where I was not compensated (although my living expenses, plus car, travel, and healthcare were readily provided).

That is, until the day I was informed (out of the blue, without preamble) that the communal foundation of my life’s work was at an end and being dissolved. So, a big “penny dropped.”

I felt a rising worry that independently making money now may be beyond my skill sets. And in addition — based on my own subconscious insecurities, as well as my early years of absorbing strict and narrow interpretations of Christian theology — I had a seasoned outlook that judged the acquisition of abundance and prosperity as a sign of self-centered, even hedonistic, avarice.

Meanwhile, a huge real-life awakening haunted me: Melanie and I were married, relocating, and feeling like a stranger in a strange land. I fretted, “What, on God’s Good Earth (literally!), can I provide in this New Normal”? 

My nervous search for an answer led me to both a desire and necessity to calm my body, ease my mind, and open my heart in surrender to a bigger discernment of what the fullness of Abundance really entails: A full and balanced range of both providing and being provided for. 

Long story short — In an adventurous interim year (details to be journaled elsetime), I gained a deep understanding that, by steadily abiding with the Source within, we are afforded the perfect support to live and learn broad ranges of lessons, including financial factors, and so much more.

Cardinal among those lessons is a primary truism: Abundance and prosperity are the results of Universal Law, and the delight of Creation’s outpouring. Further elaboration is summarized in an Introduction to John Randolph Price’s publication, “The Abundance Book.” It reads like this:

“Since the beginning of the civilized world, enlightened ones have taught that prosperity is a part of the natural process of life — lavish abundance is the unquestionable nature of each individual.

“And through the centuries, countless men and women accepted this truth, realized the law of infinite plenty within, and moved above the illusion of scarcity into the reality of unlimited wealth.

“They proved for themselves that the energy of Abundance is constantly radiating from the Source within and flowing out to appear as money and financial well-being.

“And with each awakening, more of the error patterns of lack and limitation are erased from the collective consciousness. The good of the whole begins with each individual.”

Hence, we may give with Love, Joy, and a sense of fun; And the windows of Heaven will be flung open with infinite power! All is composed of ranges of vibration. One’s vibration attracts that which one has the willingness and ability to deftly experience — because like attracts like!

WIth full assurance, let us together discern and create an Abundant Year 2021 and beyond —
Wherein We, each day, Let the Source Within Each of Us Bestow to Us Its Perfect Treasure.

Warmest of Regards — PenDell